:: I started today feeling optimistic…
My head hurts, and I’ve been super sleepy all day. Got caught up on SHIELD, and got a lot of work done. But it’s still been a “blah” day. Not in a negative way, just a…could’ve gotten more sleep, being physically wrecked is mentally draining…kinda day.
I DID get groceries though; pro food, con shopping. And that 10k ride in cold wind wrecked my throat :P
I posted a new vlog, go find it!
:: Today I said “screw it, I’m laughing at everything”…
I hope people didn’t ACTUALLY think that I was just sitting at my desk all day typing up Fbook statuses. Like…really…typing one up takes literally 5 seconds. And a big part of my “office hours” is monitoring/interacting with community life online. So…urrybody chill…yeesh!
I spent the day booking rentals, shooting a massive potato gun with kids, hanging out with kids while they act like goofballs, sitting through an important Summer Program meeting (see The B’s website, seriously, really good news!) editing Semester2 content.
Yeah, good day.
There should be a vlog popping up some time tonight as well. I just had a lot on my mind/heart today, and it came out in different ways. Working on finding new ways to express myself, be honest with myself, be open with others. Finding new layers to these things called “life” and “faith”. And by exploring my own life’s options, soaking up inspiration, and then passing it onto others, I’m able to see just how amazing life CAN be (but sadly isn’t for most because they just…don’t…get…life…)
As much as I tell people to grow in knowledge (read more, attend lectures, write out your thoughts, etc) I think it’s equally as important to work on gaining a basic sense of how to function. It’s alarming how many intelligent people are belligerent to do’s and don’ts.
:: I approached today at a slow pace…
This time allowing myself to sleep through my alarm. Giving the day to the Lord before even rustling the sheets.
Meetings in the morning, tacos in the afternoon, pipes in the evening.
Plans with Moms to bring a craft show to The Bunker. Making dinner for students. Planning renovations with a friend.
And smack dab in the middle; coffee and like minded conversation.
The more I feel like I need to retreat from society, the more I find myself getting stoked on others ideas. Inspire me, tell me a (your) story. Show me what makes you tick, make me feel it, show me you believe in it.
Make your purpose, to find your purpose.
:: So often scrolling through my feeds I’ll see captions such as; “this is a _____ blog” meaning that the person (often a “young” folk) has dedicated their page to a certain vibe/feel/look/etc.
Parents; if you’re teen listens to Arctic Monkey’s, watches American Horror Story, and loves Starbucks, they probably run a “pale” blog hahahaha (and when they hit their 20’s it will drastically turn into a gore/satanist blog…with pizza).
This morning, a pic popped up with the caption; “band, landscape, porn blog”. Right away I thought…yup, that about sums it up…
The internet is a thing. If you’re letting your kids have unlimited access to mobile devices, what the frick do you expect?
:: Today felt like two days…
Had the morning off, but still got up at six. Made breakfast, cleaned the house, did laundry, and watched the new GoT, all by 9:30AM *thumbs up*
I refuse to share my opinion on this episode, solely based on the fact that people have completely forgotten how to not be rude.
Spent the day at work talking conspiracies, upcoming events, life, and catching up with old students. A lot of people are going through a lot of things…we shouldn’t go through things alone.
Also, people waste a LOT of…stuff! Time, money, experience, opportunities, resources. Taking a second to get “green” here…why do some people insist that a good time must consist of straight up waaasting things taken from the Earth that cannot be replaced!?!
Why must a good time consist of things that kill your brain, your relationships, your reputation, your life.
Why must we continue to destroy ourselves…for…fun? Entertainment? An evening of not being bored?
INSTEAD try just…I dunno…expanding yourself!?! Learn more, read more, write out your thoughts! This whole subculture of being loud, obnoxious, rude, crass, and just straight up low-IQ is…so…….guh……I’m…..ugh…..
I love people, I do. I just hate how stupid they are capable of being. MOSTLY…because i used to act like that. I look back, or I look at them, and I see my old self, and it bums me out a little. I get riled up, get angry, get passionate, because I care…and I just want people to live better lives!
:: Today was warm, in and out…
The new President of my old College led a rousing one-sided discussion in Church this morning. I say discussion because, in my head, I was talking to him as though it were just us in the room. Challenging, inviting, engaging, with a hint of salt.
And brunch, oh boy brunch. So good. Good grief.
Today’s lesson; be accepting of help. Kids, when someone wants to hook you up with something, don’t block their ability to bless you with your pride. Free does not equal shame.
People get far too embarrassed over nothing. Sometimes literally nothing. Just enjoy life, and if you make a mistake, admit it and move on. Anyone that holds it over your head is lying to themselves to keep their own embarrassing memories at bay.
We also huddled over pizza for our first meeting of the next trip to Puerto Rico! Cannot believe how awesome the potential team is. Cannot believe how stoked I already am. Cannot believe how much pizza I ate.
Oh, and I’m rep farming again in WoW. It’s so cool to find new things like this to do. It’s like playing the game from the start all over again! I saw a meme that said WoW will help you keep your virginity for only $15 a month…made me think…videogames still get far too much flack. Especially for a medium that is becoming worldly recognized as not only an artform, but a way to bring whole communities together. Videogames raised $3000 for our ministry. They’ve helped me meet dozens of new friends around the Province. They’re things that I hope to pass down to some small being someday.
Anywhoozle. isn’t it ironic that all these people online hashtag “singlelife” when they are so incredibly unapproachable EITHER because they’re intimidatingly good looking, or, set the wrong standards so as to inadvertently come off snobbish. Maybe killing some n00bs online would soften ‘em up?
I need a good bike ride. And a good milkshake. And I haven’t been posting much on IG because I’ve felt visually uninspired. Or maybe mentally over-saturated?
This post is too long.
:: Today was productively chill…
Went for breakfast with the Pastor and the roomie. Talked shop…so…life.
Spent my afternoon running errands, getting more caught up on SHIELD (episode 12!!!) and rediscovering my ‘splorin abilities in WoW.
Also worked a rental, nothing major. Just a short setup/teardown. BUT it’s good income for The B, and keeps me on my toes.
And sadly, tonight was the final public lecture from Prov College. It’s been a fun five weeks, and tonight was really really inspiring!
Pray my car makes it to a gas station in the morning haha!
:: Yesterday was so rad…
Spent the day with so many people, at work, in the community, a part of my life. We had our big Spring Fish Fry to raise money for The B. More people than we ever had for something like this. 400lbs of fish later, and we’ll be able to do some awesome things this summer with kids in our community!
The other half of that is, The B was still open afterwards until midnight. Normally we open up, a few people stuffed with food waddle in and chill out over coffee. This time…full building with new faces wanting to check the place out! I’m all for it, but had to pound some caffeine just to keep up!
Which brings me to a thought; I’m so incredibly thankful that I’ve been blessed with the ability to function no matter what time it is. I overheard someone only a year older than me boasting about how they were able to stay awake until midnight. Another conversation I overheard, was two people not much older than me talking about how having coffee or an energy drink at 10pm means they won’t be sleeping that night. Meanwhile I’m over here with 4 cups of java a day, an energy drink almost every night, not only being blessed to function and work at the oddest hours, but lead groups of people through events and activities. This is me boasting in God’s ability to equip, not my ability to be immature :P
But, at the same time…ya’ll need to live a little more haha
Also, in the end, todays lesson was on humility. Every goal I achieve is for a greater good (which is not myself). Every rule set in place is for a reason. Every reason should be studied thoroughly. And if someone passes on knowledge, being an adult means listening, not jumping to conclusions.
:: Identity formation seems to be one of those things that we all understand takes place, but for some reason totally forget about it when we’re the ones experiencing it.
It’s like everything else in life; we love to point the finger, except when it’s in the mirror.
This becomes a problem when, you’re not dealing with something like…how to not park your car like a douche, or, how to not shmucks your food when you eat in public..here you’re dealing with your very being.
Every part of us goes through stages of stages. Every so often, we hit a point where the different dimensions of ourselves need to grow, learn, be worked on. ID formation helps us become the person that we’re meant to be. But to get there, we have to go through periods of time where we aren’t the person we want to be. It’s like puberty of the soul.
I’ve always found that going to people who have experienced these stages is the best way to get through them. Not get answers, but get through those times. There is no special way to just snap our fingers and make things disappear…even adding Jesus to your life means you have to work through things, you just have God working through it with you.
Be more accepting of yourself. Be aware that others DO understand. Be in your situation, not looking back or worrying ahead.
:: Wow, I forgot today was the big one-oh-oh…
Hmm, so, how did I spend today? Continued the weird routine I’ve picked up of waking up at 6, cleaning up, then passing out from like 7-9ish. Waking up feeling like I was hit in the head, body shaking, unaware of how long I’ve been out for.
Work was good, really good. A lot of good talks lately, and projects coming along at a good speed. I always get semi-nervous around our big annual events, cause part of me doesn’t like the “older people” side of my job. Where we have to dress nice, turn down the music, and present our cause. I like being the guy who hangouts and gets grubby with the masses.
I also started putting serious thought into how we’re going to finish off the school year. I very much want it to be a time of everyone getting together and really thinking about how much we’ve all been through over the last eight months. I know there will be some that kinda shrug it off, but, oh well…
Also it was Manda’s birthday today! So poutine, beers, and Madmen was a must! I really can’t stress enough how much I dislike “special” days that our society celebrates. But, any excuse to get together with friends over good food is cool with me!
And late night chats with friends you haven’t connected with a while…that doesn’t happen as much anymore. Something about growing older…something about priorities changing…something about life still needing to be lived. How badly do you cling to people just to have them in your life. How long can you go without contact without having your friendship dented.
Anyway, after spending 100 days in 2014 I’ve learned a few things; being positive is fun, being optimistic is great, being real doesn’t always mean you need to be either of those all the time. That, and according to my friends I need to stop pursuing women, and let one pursue me for a change? Something like that, I’m sure I got that wrong…which is another thing I’ve learned: I’m never wrong….wait…that’s probably…oh nevermind!
1. Band News
Alexisonfire’s vocalist has announced a new band is on the way! Dallas, Wade, and now George…I’m all for these guys being more involved with music! [altpress.com]
As I Lay Dying, well…the band…has announced a new project on the way. Right after Tim Lambesis leaves a fake message saying that AILD will be reforming…awkward [metalsucks.com]
2. Late Night News
Stephen Colbert is taking over The Late Show, since Letterman is retiring…which I didn’t know about. It’ll be weird to see Colbert switching styles, but “mainstream” TV desperately needs it. [cbc.ca]
The Tonight Show online; Jimmy Fallon knows the importance of entertaining the internet. And if you haven’t already, he created a helpful video to get you onboard with their YouTube channel… [video]
:: Why do people run from themselves…
Today wasn’t bad, had a nice start, a nougaty center, and a chill evening. I got some more events planned at work, figured out some more details, and had some good conversations. Ate some good food, bought more good food for later. Watched more Agents Of SHIELD, drew some pictures, played some WoW. Yeah, today was good. The only downside was that it was too windy to go for a ride. But, there’s always tomorrow.
Here’s a thought; why are so many afraid to love themselves. To let themselves enjoy life. To allow themselves to see the positive that exists. Spread love, work hard, be passionate, find your purpose. I say this again and again and again and I won’t stop saying it until people don’t need to hear it anymore……..I’m gonna be here for a while I guess. Join me?
:: Today I awoke with a violent shake…
It felt like I didn’t sleep at all. I was up late, for several reasons, and woke up every hour throughout the night. This left me needing an abnormal amount of caffeine throughout the day. Just to keep that burny-eyed feeling at bay.
Hung out with students at lunch, and made taco’s for them at dinner. It was another day at the office spending my time finalizing details for the last two months of our Season. I don’t like releasing details all at once. I mean there’s like…eight different events…so it could be overwhelming. But at the same time, I want people to sit with info for awhile before dropping more on them. The thought is, hopefully, that they take to heart what we do…
Biked far too hard for far too long because of my excitement for sun. The smells that and pouring through the town are so rejuvenating! To recoup, I grabbed a sandwich, some cereal, and caught up on Agents of SHIELD. Now, after seeing CapUSA2, it really gives me a new perspective on the show (I’m on up to episode 7…).
A few daily’s on WoW, some sketching, and it’s time for bed…
:: Day 96 not brought to you buy buggy internet…
You ever have a day where you think; “nope, not dealing with today”
But then you remember the world doesn’t revolve around you, so you buck up and get to work. And throughout your day you have that overhanging feeling that at some point you’re going to have to deal with your mood, your case of the Mondays, but that just causes you to crawl further into your cerebral cave.
And then, because of your profession, people come to you with similar situations (of course, they don’t KNOW that they are similar situations) and you realize; “man, I need to take my own advice” or rather in my case; “gee, thanks God for allowing me to see the error of my ways, while at the same time helping others get over hurdles”.
I like being nerdy, I like being quirky, I enjoy messing with life. Because we all know how much life will mess with us.
:: Marvel has done a really good job of giving us distinctly different genres of film, all within the context of an overarching superhero, Saturday morning cartoon, storyline.
Thor; fantasy & mythology. Iron Man; action & science. Captain America; adventure & espionage. And while the first Cap the side of war, this sequel really opens us up to the world of spies within Marvel. Anyone who’s read the Avengers “Ultimate” series knew right away what was coming…deception within SHIELD. But the right twists to make it blend with the cinematic universe Disney is weaving were gorgeous!
I felt the connection between Bucky and Steve (btw if by now you STILL didn’t know who the Winter Soldier was please just stopping being a fan of these movies and go watch…I dunno…whatever Michael Bay’s making…).
I truly believed that they were killing characters off. I bought into everything they were building up. I really did have an overwhelming sense of “oh crap how in the world are they going to pull this off”
Add in the fact that there were enough twists and turns to keep my Dad, born and raised on spy literature, on the edge of his seat…and you’ve got yourself a movie that forces Avengers2 to really push boundaries!
I’m looking at it this way…
Pre-Avengers: We had superhero movies that fulfilled some of our childhood wants, with subtle nods at each other to make us smile.
Avengers: Showed us that possibly, maybe, all those things we dreamed of as kids could come true.
Post-Avengers: We’ve been given the opportunity to actually see those dreams lived out. And so far, it’s working. Sure with a few bumps along the way…not everything in this movie was perfect…but it was darn near close!
I love that Marvel is no longer catering to the whim of non-fans. They are giving us nerds what we want, no compromise. Crossbones was in the movie, did you know that? And the Baron at the end…with Quicksilver and Scarlet Witch. I’m betting only 10% of cinema viewers understood half of what they saw!
THE INTRODUCTION OF MUTANTS INTO THE MARVEL MOVIE UNIVERSE CHANGES EVERYTHING!…again
This movie was great not only for how fun it was to watch, but because of all the doors it opened.